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Jun. 21st, 2006 @ 05:21 am Katy Towell
Current Location: Illinois
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: None at the moment
Wow I haven't been on here in like the longest time..... Well good news is I'm not dead :D bad news is ive got no friends on here to read this..... so I'm basically typing to myself. Wow I'm a loser XD lol well Hopefully my message will be seen by anyone sooner than never. Katy ROCKS OUT LOUD for her Childrin R Skary movies I give so many props my hands fall off for her. I would kill to meet her right now shes my animator idol <3 lmao well Katy Towell if you ever get the chance to read this lol your my hero and supremeoverlordmastergeneralpubhaa god :D LOL. Well I realize the odds of you commenting back to this are one to.... a bajillion and then some random numbers i cant count to. But just know this- Your animations have made me a happy and downright maniacal person. I am in the process of buying your book I need to get my money soon after my girl comes down and leaves... july 16 lol shes coming down this saturday. And I'm getting her one of your Skary Tee's. I love everything on your website. Also, this is Troy and his peeping tom attitude for animation :D lol.... that sounded horrifically wrong... That was never said *waves hands like a jedi* o.0 Well if you ever have free time or anything of the sort. lol feel free to just post a public comment or w/e lol it doesn't matter to me much just as long as you get this message :D lol you have a bitchin summer xD <3. lol
Sincerely a die hard fan,
Troy
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Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 02:43 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: sad music
Well my christmas is going to suck some major ass.... Well for starters I get nothing for christmas my little brothers are on a program that gives them free toys people donate. I don't get anything at all well that part doesn't even bother me. Here is the clencher because my dad is a complete and utter moron and I hate him with a flaming passion that cant even begin to describe it. See my dad decided to pay the power bills and other things instead of our house's mortgage which has'nt been payed in 2 months so thats about 1600$ we have yet to pay and if we do not pay it then we will be evicted from our home we have until spring to come up with the money then the eviction notice is coming in spring they can't evict us in the winter because it is illegal which is the only good news I have heard all month. But, I have been so damn depressed about it because its my house I don't want to lose it and today I cried in choir class because everyone was all have a very merry christmas and everything we made christmas ornaments in science. If it was'nt for Jordan I would still be depressed. I have lost so many friends this year and everytime i think of it it makes things worse I don't know what I do to people because I havent hurt anyone or anything and people still hate me anyways I would like for ONCE for someone to tell me the problems they have with me because it makes me sad when people hate me because i thought they were my friends. Leah well I guess you just hate me and think im creepy so fuck it I considered you one of the closest friends I have ever had.. apparently that meant nothing to you like so many other people hope you feel great about yourself I sure think you are cool all I wanted is for you to be happy wow imagine that thats too much to ask a person without them hating you. And would you look at what one of the friends i have'nt talked to in over three months because they havent been on and they have been busy lately because of their new baby:---------------

4 you

I'll just take it as a hint if I don't get this back. How many people actually have 8 true friends? Hardly anyone I know! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!! You have been tagged by the Friendship Angel , Which means you are a great friend!! You will have good luck for Two Years if you send this to 8 people or more and if it is sent back to you then you know that you are a true friend.....

Delete this if we are not friends
Of all the friends
I've ever met,
You're the one
I won't forget.
And if I die
Before you do
I'll go to heaven
And wait for you
I'll give the angels
Back their wings

And risk the loss

Of everything

Just to prove
My friendship is true
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Hey at least I have one more friend than I thought I had well ttyl and if for some reason I dont get back on its because they evicted us fuck em to hell I hate christmas sooo much right now and everything there is NOTHING good about any of this holiday right now I just want to cry which I have been doing for the last several hours. And well later I'm going to go to my only other friend my pills bye all
Troy
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Nov. 30th, 2005 @ 07:26 pm hahaha lies hurt me alot:(
awsome! I friended you! now all you have to do is friend me back, and make yourself an info, and get some icons, and you'll be all set! love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya... 37_beachnutz hahah lies are so hurtful in the end :( what a bunch of shit
"love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya, love ya... " my ass she told me she thought i was creepy ??? wierd aint it ol well fuck it buh bye then
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Nov. 30th, 2005 @ 06:50 pm HMmmmmmmm well lol i lost a bunch of friends this last weekend
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: nothign
well i lost a really near and dear or so i thought friend to me recently last weekend do to me and apparently i creeped her out.... o well i tried to stay in touch apparently that didnt go over well with her..... *sighs* man lol i foudn out that even when you do something sooo absolutely wonderful for someone and never think about yourself, god or karma ALWAYS fucks you over in the end well at least i have a very few select friends still i think i am hopin they will tell me if i creep them out otherwise apparently friendship doesnt exist and im all alone *again* well i dont know really what else to say cept i am hated by sooooo many people lol and i needed counseling again for losing more friends i totally wasnt ready for that so now im fucked in the head again stupid fucking head doctors. Wow i seriously had no idea that well i was hated as much as I was..... lol well im kinda over it its gonna be a couple of months before i find a way to cope meh stupid motherfucking disorders I hate em all. every single one i have. god this sucks lol i still cant believe that all this time she just wanted me to leave her alone im still kinda dumbfounded she said we should keep in touch so i did all i could to try doing that and then she turned around and said i creeped her out and we shouldnt talk again. WTF?? it would have been much less painless if she could have just told me straight up during the summer that wouldnt have been as bad but the only problem is i liked her alot lol i thought of her as one of my closest and best friends i would tell her anything but apparently im not a best friend to anyone but my friend jordan *best friends for life*. lol amd wow lol all i want is for leah to be happy still i dont hate/despise/dislike her in any way still. if this is what can make her happy then ill do it even if it means being hated by the person i thought was one of my best friends <////3 and im not sure but im guessing she even blocked me on aim too lol wouldnt surprise me i got rid of her on my friends list and everything too so she wont ever even have to read the lousy shit i write ever again :( o well im still kinda hyper from the 5 zolofts i took that shit kept me up allll night hahahahaha o well when it wears off that should be sum fun times well more than likely i doubt i will get commented hardly at all on anything i write seeing as how i only have 2 friends on here well soon to be one but yes well life sucks in short and im still wondering why god made friendship sooo painful he shouldnt have o well man i hate friendship soooo much but i only have one friend that is really like making up for it considering i am hated by pretty much everyone else *sighs* well im more than likely going to be on all night so if any one comments me ill read it probably asap but ya *sighs one last time* i really do hate life right now im still kinda puzzled where i want to go in my life from here i was planning to go to college but now i dont even know anymore it really does suck ass well Leah if you happen to read this "WHICH I HIGHLY DOUBT" but yes in case you do read this have a happy life unlike mine ^_^ and goodbye forever bye bye -Troy
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Nov. 27th, 2005 @ 05:32 pm i dunno
I saved a life recently, and did everything i possibly can to make everyones life good, wow karma is a total bitch I hate it more than anything right now. lol i dont get why karma fucked me over in the deal im supposed to get good things in return for good things not vice-versa o well fuck it.
-troy
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Nov. 26th, 2005 @ 05:31 pm LEAH READ THIS A.S.A.P.
Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Motion City Soundtrack
hey everyone im so darn sorry i havent been posting much lately lol been busy but yes Leah if your reading this i need to know when the reruns FOR WEST WING lol u have yet to tell me still >_<.

That and I saved a life recently I am so relieved she is alright lol here is the comment she left me on vampirefreaks.com:

hey troy,
i did wat i promised you i would do i told my sister and she talked my mom into letting me stay home while they go to work that way i dont have to go to my uncles house......but she hasnt told my mom yet she said that she would deal with it once she got home from work and for me to just stay home and rest and stuff.......and i just wanted to say thanx for everything if i would never have commented you that day i probally would have already killed myself but u saved me and i love you soooo much u mean everything to me....well i gtg i'll just ttyl since you'r still sleeping right now so bye bye for now xooxox.

im so effin glad i made a difference in someones life yesterday lol she is a realy cool person and lol ill tell you guys more bout it later but Leah TELL ME THE RERUN TIMES FOR WEST WING!!!!!!>_< LMAO OK? BYE BYES
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Nov. 3rd, 2005 @ 08:31 am bored :(
Current Mood: Sigh
Current Music: i cant listen to ne :(
mna im bored SCHOOL IS EFFIN BORING MAN and leah you still need to get back at me with those times for west wing lol I wanna be your west wingnut too lol :). but ya hey babe ummmm lol are you any good at spanish I need alotta help in it. :) If i remember correctly you are in French are you not? Well if I am right spanish is very close in pronounciation too in language lol I need someone to help me with it badly and I AM OFFICIALLY IN UPWARD BOUND AND IT EFFIN ROCKS MAN!!! I am really hoping this can help me get to college for you see any kid in upward boundwell scratch that every kid in that program has gotten to college and this is basically a guarantee to get there lol its my goal and im stickin to it well babe i gotta go ok? xoxxoox love ya bunches leah lol comment me soon with those darn rerun times for west wing it seems like a very intellectual show lol ok? love ya bunches lol laters i gotta go cuz my teacher is being a bitch lol love all you guys alot later
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Oct. 31st, 2005 @ 06:35 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: anything saddening
hey everyone lol halloween sucked ass so much tonite i hate it so damn much i like fucking cried my eyes out tonite i took like 3 steps outside said it just aint gonna be the same without jordan and im going to be so lonely trick or treating alone im not even gonna go nemore at all.... and i went inside and cried i hate today sooo fucking much it isnt funny i hate today right now *sniffles* i love all of ya xooxox laters hope all of your have better halloweens then i have had tonite lol xxxx love you leah alot still if you can call me whenever lol it dont matter when it is ill be up or the sleeping pills will put me to sleep one of the 2 lol..... those are like the only friends i have left right now lol xoxoxo laters love u leah :)
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Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 03:21 pm wtf im hated by everyone
Current Mood: :(
Current Music: anything sad
man lately i have had the worst luck with people... i mean like rite now sumone who i thought WAS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS turned out to fucking hate me to an extent i cannot comprehend for sum unknown reason and that makes me sad and i dunno why they hate me eithe. i mean i hug alot of ppl and i gave her one hug and her jealous piece of shit boyfriend went off. and right now all i want is to make a new friend and leave this place this sucks ass and i dont even know why i am hated anyways. :( but ya well if you read this message i dunno why i am or nethign but i am more than likely ending up probably gonna kick his ass which i hope dont happens cuz i will get kicked out of upward bound and right now i am just sad pissed and i dunno but i really do hate it here and i want to hurt sumone i hate being the one who is loathed by everyone for no reason its getting me depressed again :( damnit why the hell does it always end like this for me :( i hope they all go to hell here ill even put in the convo i had with her asswipe of a friend:

DrakeyBoihere007: How come you never answered me last night?
DrakeyBoihere007: Because that is really retarded what you are doing.
DrakeyBoihere007: You know she doesn't want Jordan to get into trouble because she loves him to pieces and then you go and have to start all this shit with him to try and get him into trouble.
DrakeyBoihere007: I'm sorry but that doesn't fly with me.
booptisthename: who is this?
booptisthename: really i do not know who the hell this is and jordan are u talking about jordan smith or who cuz i just stopped hangning out with them cuz apparently im not welcomed there
DrakeyBoihere007: Yeah I am talking about Jordan Smith. And this is Shantel's best friend Drake.
booptisthename: thats great but i stopped hangning out with them and u never imed me b4 to my knowledge
DrakeyBoihere007: And if you just now got the hint that you weren't welcome with them then your pretty dumb. You should have known by Jordan and Mike and all them that you weren't welcome there a long ass time ago.
DrakeyBoihere007: Yeah I IMED you last night and you never answered me.
booptisthename: well you know what iuf your going to be a dickhead fine
booptisthename: leave me THE FUCK alone if your just going to im me and insult me ok?
booptisthename: well i wasnt there when u imed me otherwise i would have imed
booptisthename: u
DrakeyBoihere007: Whatever. Your just soo damn lucky i had to move last year.
booptisthename: guess what
booptisthename: I DONT GIVE A FUCKING SHIT AT ALL
booptisthename: leave me alone
booptisthename: i dont care if you would have tried and kick my ass either i wouldnt let some punk like u kick my ass
booptisthename: so fuck off and die and leave me alone
DrakeyBoihere007 signed off at 3:00:51 PM.

I am booptisthename i hate this guy and i hope he gets hit by a truck and he just kept sayin shit so i said shit back
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Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 05:45 pm west wing
Current Mood: crappy
wow......... im so fucking lonely here i just want more friends but they wont be my friends i got 2 new ones lol and i really dont have nething to look forward everyday but the few hugs i get from like 2 ppl everyday man i live one hell of a sad life.. i dunno what to write today cuz i cant even think of anything im just singing roller coaster by blink 182 since i really have like no life lol kickboxing isnt even really much of a goal here for me nemore *Sighs*
O and leah lol im starting to watch west wing now lol is hard to understand midseason lmfao but ill try to understand it i wanna be ure westwingnut buddy too lol i got cable again cuz its cheaper so ya ill ttyl later ok? bye
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Oct. 7th, 2005 @ 09:43 pm depressed.... again
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: i dont care
lol im depressed again........ and well i really dont know what to do nemore seriously im so lonely lol im too ugly which means every attempt at a finding a new girlfriend and or just a chick friend in general have proved that apparently many more ppl hate me than i thought/knew for that matter. i am apparently not meant for neone here i want to move so badly but im too young and not even able to move in with a friend either :/. i really do hate living here so much and i wish i had someone to talk to cuz i really dont have anymore friends nemore im so lonely here i want to move and get away from here forever and never come back i just want friends and to start my entire life over again from scratch and forget my past here forever but sadly i cannot i just have no more friends on here either i might as well be talking to my fucking self since noone even reads this son of a bitch not even you leah lol i really have nothing left to lose so i invite someone to ruin the rest of the month jsut like last month im sick and tired of it i hate this shitty life i have and envy anyone with friends i truly hate this town, school, and state i want to go away from here as far as physically possible sigh well im gonna wrap this up and go sing some more the only friends i have rite now are pills, music, and sleeping. i have no life apparently nemore i hate it soo much talk to myself later since noone apparently ever reads this shit so bye
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Oct. 5th, 2005 @ 08:31 pm this concert sucked ass as does all the other ones......
Current Mood: depressed and angry
Current Music: any hardcore death metal i can get my damn hands on
i hated tonite soo fucking much almost as much as i hate and loath my family tory got a concussion and again for the umpteenth motherfucking time my entire goddamn family couldnt even see me they couldnt even pick me the fuck up so i had to get a ride with my friend and on top of that i failed a test today and now my mom is bitching at me about the damn hospital and saying to me "I didnt spend 5 hours at the hospital for nothing, and thanks for making my day worse by acting like a dick on the fone like usual to me" and man i felt good :) i want to fucking hit her and hit my dad the dumbfuck in the face and i hate everyone rite now and i dont even wanna talking to neone rite now and i just wanna fucking cry or break my hand beating sumthing or start cutting im so fucking frustrated and im sick and tired of it my family has never seen me at a choir concert and it would mean the fucking world to me if they could just once just one mother fucking time thats all i ask of them, but no its too much for them and too much for tory and tanner who always fuck it all up neways by acting like lil assholes the entire time or get hurt so my parents gotta watch the dipshits. i hate my family im just going to take a shitload of sleeping pills tonite i hope i am out for 3 or 4 goddamn days i hate everyone so much rite now there has been no redeeming qualities on today. the interview i had with upward bound also went bad i didnt even finish either test i had to take to qualify and to finish the icing on the motherfucking cake my mom is AGAIN bitching at me for the fact im being selfish at which i just dont give 2 shits less anymore i hate my entire life and my family for making it worse my ll brother fucks everything up whenever he does nething my mom i hate rite now and my dad i hope that dipshit gets hit by a fucking truck. alng with myself rite now i hate my family so much i doubt neone will even fucking read this so i hate my entire family =) with a flaming passion that god himself cannot even comprehend. so goodnite and leah i miss you alot bye
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Sep. 28th, 2005 @ 02:51 pm OMFG WOOHHOOOO
Current Mood: judasd priest (preconcertmusic
YES YAAY THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT THIS ENTIRE GODDAMN SHIT MONTH OF SEPTEMBER IS THE FACT I GET TO GO TO A JUDAS PRIEST CONCERT TONITE WOOOOOHHHOOOOOOO!!!! lol well i cant wait im leaving at 6:30 for it and wont be back until like midnite (ish) lol well i will talk to you all later and update this later tonite when i get back ok? xxxxxxxxxxx love ya all bye
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Sep. 27th, 2005 @ 08:13 am school *damn*
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: none ill get in trouble if i listen to it
yup here at school again and damn is it boring i would have more fun juggling rabidevil zombie monkeys while having my hair slowly burned off. well i just got my homework done for the stupid spanish class and *sigh* i love you bunches leah still. O and i also dyed my hair jet black it is soooooo black lol it is blacker than samuel jackson drowned in oil. well i love you all bunches and ill talk to you all later when i get home ill update this much more soon ok? xxxxxx laters everyone bye
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Troy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Sep. 24th, 2005 @ 08:31 pm fuck it
Current Mood: shitty i hate today
Current Music: mcr im not okay (i promise) and other of their songs
im so fucking bored and NOTHING at all this week has gone right. i failed 2 tests found out i have several missing assignments in different classes, and my hair dye which was supposed to be black turned my motherfucking hair purple i am reallly really pissed off rite now and i am sooo wishing i can get better grades to become and emancipated minor and get an apartment of my own away from this rotting hell hole. This week has sucked so much ass i hate it and i even hate this weekend it hasnt gotten ne better at all so fuck all of it i am so fed up with all this stupid shit i hate high school well i take that back i hate school period and this house and my stupid fucking family so ugh i hate this all so much man i cant wait till i can leave this house and my gay ass family well i dunno if i am gonan be posting nemore at all cuz well i see no point in it so i hate all of this so much and my friends here suck ass too so i told them i am no longer their friend so i am trying to avoid them online too. im gonna be a loner a sad life but o well its better than having friends who give 2 shits less about you friendship and love both suck and i wish there wasnt any of either of them at all in this endless hell we call life well bye to all of you later!
troy
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Sep. 22nd, 2005 @ 03:07 pm i hate today more than nething
Current Mood: really really sad cant talk
Current Music: slipknot before i forget
im so sad right now the fact the girl homecoming hates me and stopped talking to me i tried asking her to a dance and well she gave me no answer and told me that lets just be friends and then maybe we could get closer and then we could go to homecoming together. but nope she doesnt want that i figured lol she has stopped talking to me completely. that and i failed my really really important spanish test today and i have missing work in every class at school so im betting im only gonna have kickboxing for hmm another week or 2 until actualy report cards come out and then i wont be able to do that the only thing that gives me a shred of happiness. o and the fact well it seems that all my friends are sorta drifting away from me. so i dont really have neone here for me nemore and well it seems as though Leah has stopped talking to me completely so i kinda have just given up on life. i dont really have much left to lose now do i? Leah if you are reading this "did i do sumthing wrong or sumthing i mean like you havent even bothered to omment on my lv in well since i got on here and i am worried that u dont even want me as a friend nemore :'( wel i am crying as write this so i would really just like to knopw what i did and why you dont ever comment on here i dunno im just depressed and i really reallly just want someone to talk to but i have noone.... well i cant write nemore cuz i cant see out of my eyes cuz they are too filled up with tears so i dunno just comment back on what or why u dont even fuck your not even gonan read this whats the point screw it bye.
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Sep. 12th, 2005 @ 04:29 am goddamnit
Current Mood: crappy
Great I just found out that yes I do have pneumonia and goddamn does every part of me hurt. I want to sleep but it hurts to lay down and to breathe. God it feels like someone keeps repeatedly hitting me in the back of the head with a hammer. It hurts soo much to even move that right now I am in agonizing pain. I want to sleep still but if I get underneath my blankets, I become extremely cold and then it starts hurting to move. Well, I would type more but im gonna go and just stay up the rest of the night because if I try sleeping again I will just be in more pain so if anyone reads this and wants to chat with me im gonna be up for a very long time so don't be afraid to IM me on aim or yahoo well talk to all of you later bye.
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Sep. 11th, 2005 @ 02:35 pm Ugh
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: whatever
grrrr I think I am getting my little brothers pneumonia. Man this realy sucks I hate this weekend soooo much all I have been doing is lying around and coughing and sneezing. I cant breathe out of my nose, and I wish someone at all just one person would call me for like 5 seconds. Ahhhh my stupid throat hurts so much I just want to rip it out :( . Well I'll talk to you all later and leave me a shitload of comments cuz I have nothing better to do than read rite now lol so talk to you all later.
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Sep. 9th, 2005 @ 02:47 pm no homework
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: bloodhound gang (nope not sick of em yet)
well i have no homework this weekend except to get my upward bound information all filled out and everything and i cant wait for monday because thats the day i am going to get my favorite teacher mrs.Charles to sign my reccomendation sheet for me lol she may have been my eighth grade teacher but she was the nicest one i have ever had lol i cant wait to see her again lol i miss her sooo much and when i do lol i am more than likely gonna sit down and talk to her for like an hour or 2 lol i miss her she was an awesome teacher lol well if neone wants to im me my sn is illwillpress792 im always on and well talk to you all later bye!
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Sep. 8th, 2005 @ 04:24 pm Upward Bound
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: bloodhound gang cuz they kick ass
well today i signed up for a program called upward bound its to help poorer students get into college and hopefully later in my life I am able to go to a college in Massachusetts to be able to go to the same school as my girlfriend I love her with every part of my heart and soul she has meant the world to me and without her I am nothing and honey if you are reading this call me asap ok? I love you so much and well thats about all I gotta say ill post more on here later about my schooling and the program to see if I qualified for it well I'll talk to you all later bye!
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